Taking honors chemistry 1 in freshman fall was…quite a choice. I figured it was only right to take honors chem as an intended pre-med (especially because I had been sure about my pre-med path and destiny ever since I was in kindergarten). To my shock and horror, I absolutely hated chemistry, despite absolutely loving it when I took it in high school. What was happening to me? I hated chemistry so much that I used my calculus homework as a reward/break from writing my lab reports. I started to think about if being pre-med was really right for me. Why did I want to be a physician in the first place? What if I actually liked math more? I barely made it through the class and it was without any joy by the end. By winter quarter, I knew staying on the pre-med track was not right for me – I was so unhappy. But to give up my childhood dream, is this what failure felt like? Was I really ready to let go of all that? And for what? What would I study now? What was the point of all the struggle and time I had put into pre-med activities and coursework up until this point? Was it all a waste?